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[firstjade]

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[diabolique]

But you have heard him laugh??

[firstjade]

As a child, yes.

[diabolique]

I can't imagine Lan Zhan as a child.

[firstjade]

Do you want to?

[diabolique]

What was he like?

[firstjade]

As a child?

[ If they were face to face, Xichen would be giving Wuxian a smile that would clearly state he knows what the younger man is wanting to know. While being a bit deliberately difficult. ]

[diabolique]

(( Zewu-jun! D: ))

Yeah.

[firstjade]

[ Since there is no video feature currently on, Xichen allows himself a little grin before smoothing his expression out and considering the question. ]

Loyal and stubborn, Wei-gongzi. We were allowed to visit our mother once a month. Wangji loved her dearly, so when she passed away, he refused to accept it and continued to wait outside her door. Every month.

Once he puts his mind to something, nothing will shake it. Do you understand?

[diabolique]

(( There's a noticeable silence after the information is given. Wangji told him about his mother, but not in such detail. Finally, he exhales, closing his eyes on his end of the call. ))

May I be earnest with you, Zewu-jun?

[firstjade]

[ Xichen lets the information sink in, giving Wuxian as much time as he wants before dictating what else he wishes to discuss, or end the call entirely. ]

Of course.

[diabolique]

(( He opens his mouth to speak, but finds no words forthcoming. How can he possibly tell Lan Wangji's brother that he's not sure he isn't just toying with Lan Zhan's affections? That he isn't sure he feels the same way, but he's willing to carry on just to find out? ))

I'm... not sure I can make him happy.

[firstjade]

[ Now it's his turn to be quiet for a moment. ]

Why do you feel you need to do anything for him to be happy? You are alive and well.

[diabolique]

(( What don't these Lans gets?? Wouldn't it be better if he could say definitively that he had feelings for Lan Wangji? ))

SHouldn't I return his feelings? Wouldn't that be best?

[firstjade]

[ Because when they give their heart to someone, nothing can shake it. ]

It would, but for him, it is not a requirement. What is most important is that you do not try to deceive him. If you are not sure how you feel, then I would ask, as his brother, that you search for the answer.

[diabolique]

I'm trying.

[firstjade]

How can I help?

[diabolique]

I'm not sure. I'm just trying to understand him better.

[firstjade]

If that is what you have set your mind on, then I am certain you will find your way.

[diabolique]

I thought, maybe if I understood the ways of your Sect a little better... Maybe it would help?

[firstjade]

Are you asking for lessons, Wei-gongzi? In how to follow our rules?

[diabolique]

(( Cue the awkward laughter. )) I think we both know that's not possible.

[firstjade]

[ He doesn't laugh out loud, but there is a rather fond and amused note in his voice. ]

You were much younger at the time. Now, I think you might understand better, even if you choose not to follow them yourself.

[diabolique]

I didn't want to understand then.

[firstjade]

Yet you do now, correct?

[ For his brother. Xichen approves of this. ]

[diabolique]

I do.